To summarize. Better then I expected, but probably worse then I am thinking.
While I could close off the mourning at the day of my nephew’s cremation, which is something I wasn’t expecting, a lot of other things still play, most of it subconsciously, and that’s what weighing me down a lot more. And I feel I what I realize of it is only the tip of the iceberg. I notice it in a lot of things. Me being absent-minded, forgetting things, being more easily irritated and salty and, at least in my opinion, underperforming in games, especially more actiony games. Genshin Impact is one I really notice it in that I play regularly to do my dailies and such where I am having more trouble clearing domains I shouldn’t have much issue with at this point, but yeah.
I have gotten a lot of support though. Either in unexpected ways or from unexpected people and I am really grateful for it all. Even though my introvert self is stressing out at times from it. Keeping my mind occupied with things really helps though. Whether it’s talking to someone, some easy gaming, working in my carrot garden to get it summer ready or looking for the best way to deal with my desk issue.
Overall though Mama Velvetale is understandably taking it even worse and I feel part of my worries is my inability to really help her with that. I try where I can but … I wish I had an idea to help her better.
Anyway, once again thanks to everyone for all the support and I hope I can resume my usual schedule soon and can start doing more. For now I will just keep doing my best with what I have been doing so i hope you can all understand and keep on visiting my streams.
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